Oh my… (2026/04/08)
This place needs an upheavel!
…no, not just this blog, silly! It is quite abysmal, I do agree. I’m talking about something else.
What exactly?
This whole city.
This whole city needs to burn.
Fuck this rotten, mushy core. Fuck how artistically dead that people must find meaning through cheap, cheap thrills.
I’m sure there’s good people here. They’re just rarely artists, it seems.
Or maybe, those two weren’t artists. Maybe that person weren’t an artist either. That person is talented, but I am hesitant to call him an artist. I know that /he/ wasn’t an artist, that was my first exposure to the AB binary.
Maybe…they were people who made art. There’s a difference you know. It’s A and B.
->A, will be for Artists.
->B, for People Who Make Art.
No one is better than the other.
But sometimes, the clash is too much to handle.
A, art is their perceptual system. Their nervous system too. How they think, feel, see. Determines their behaviour, their choices.
B lives without that type of body. They have something else, but their body is still capable of creating art.
The clash comes because A takes things that B makes and it shakes them to their core. But B takes the things A makes and feels nothing.
I have a hard time with Bs because I know they feel nothing when I hand them my things.
I think that’s all for tonight. I’m quite angry. And the funny thing is, I’m not apart of this one. But I do care for my friend.
If you’re reading this, which I doubt, which is kind of why I’m writing this, I just wanted to say so much.
You’ve changed my life. I wouldn’t be who I am if it weren’t for what you do. Fellow A. You’ve been there to see my bumpy steps up my art progression. Encouraging, supporting, loving. Thank you. You are real. I’m sorry for what happened. You do not deserve that. I hope one day, someone will truly see you for you. You’ll get to feel love with no hidden taxes. I feel you will. The love letter will enter your hands, your eyes will read every word over and over before you even know you’re in love. I know you will because of how much you’ve been real to me and my art. It is A.
Feeling like FOID up in this May Weather (2025/05/13)
Archives of May… I wonder what’s coming this thursday???
‣ MAY 11 | 11:27PM
4 DAYS
Maybeyou'll
Crossmymind
Justonceortwice
ButI
Don'treallycare
Mybonesarebare
Soasyourstare
I'llberighthere
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‣ MAY 05 | 11:27PM
10 DAYS
girls on film!
‣ MAY 02 | 11:43PM
13 DAYS
A joke drawing I did while actually trying to conceptualize VANNE.
Last two posts of April! (2025/05/02)
My final posts! My Neocities will reset now, May is an important month!!! Just so you know!!!
April 29th, 2025.
✦Music✦
Shoegaze band from Ottawa. I like the vocals a lot.
✦VCR✦
Job :(
April 23rd, 2025.
✦Music✦
Tucana are the new boys on the O-block. First thing I've heard from them was Starter Pack (haha funnily enough) and... I thought they weren't too great. I liked their guitars a lot but the singer really needed to find his own singing style or else you're just the guy from PUP!
Spirit Bomb is fine. And I see a slight degree of personality forming. I like it more and the ending kicks some ass. But hey, as spring FINALLY settles in and the sunset is stretched out, I don't mind the twinkly pop-punk as I look at the pink skies.
✦VCR✦
Oh god, I finished my cigarettes. I walked around my neighbourhood and smoked the final two. Wish I shared them, because smoking on your own is pretty miserable!
Okara (2025/04/16)
[Crossposting from my Neocities]
Okara was a hardcore band that formed 1995, right in this city! Really really good, I’m looping Red Tide as I type this. The following track, Aguirre is a noisy treat. All recorded in their basement. I wish I could dig up information but I really don’t want to give my soul to the Meta overlords… September of ‘95, they played at Carelton, with another Ottawa band Shotmaker and these nobodies called Fugazi.
According to a comment on this video their bassist, Matt, has passed away. I don’t recommend bothering anyone, but do listen to this sick piece of history!
Dissect the Frog [DEMO!] (2025/04/16)
Something better than the draft I had here.
miss star eyed! (2025/04/08)
Oh yeah baby I’m on fire, a grungy demo for the soundcloud!!!
Procrastination strikes again (2025/04/06)
Check out this silly thing i did, k thanks :) <3
;( (2025/04/05)
[Crossposting from my neocities]
✦Music✦
winky frown makes quick, chaotic breezes of music. From ;( third edition, I like the 36 second song ‘capitalism’ and the educational, introspective, outro that is ‘43 muscles’. I’m not sure I’ve heard the term eggpunk before but it is (I’m saying this with only love and appreciation) stupid. I love you, winky frown.
✦VCR✦ I ’ve been thinking about my own feelings. What events from my past have caused me to think the way that I do now? With music, I enjoy songs that take me back to a very short and specific time. 12 years old, beginning of 7th grade. Did I have it all figured out in middle school? No. But it sure felt like I did. I’m terrified to type the following out, but I doubt he’d see this. I still miss my best friend from then. Which, realistically speaking, is not who I actually miss. It’s the what that I yearn for. I miss the joy that came with us opening movie maker, hitting record, strumming my stupid ukulele and having my friend make lyrics on the spot. We’d go at this for hours until I had to leave. I’ve lived with this stupid hole in my heart that I’ve been wanting to fill, with little success. I’m not sure what to fill it with, so it might be the type of pain one covers and forgets about.
March passed me by! (2025/04/01)
[Crossposting from my Neocities]
We’ve reached the last month of the first quarter, which is insane to me. It felt like March passed me right by…but I’m glad it did, I want to get to spring already. I hate the cold weather!
✦Music✦ My friend, Hini, dropped his song, stiletto. It’s great as always :) give him a listen on spotify or soundcloud.
I was planning to see Neurotypes last night, but I missed out so I really hope they play again soon. Bringing on the Shame has been stuck in my head ever since I first listened. I found them a while back because a family member made shirts for them. It’s so cool checking in and seeing how their style has changed, it’s sick! They’re making great stuff.
✦V✦C✦R✦ This month, I’ve formed a 4-piece with some cool people I’ve met over the past months. We’re fleshing out our style at the moment, and our next step is to find our “gimmick.” I really wish we could jam more often, but once a week will have to do. Equipment hunting hasn’t been my favourite due to the cost, but I think the spiritual payout it’ll give me will be worth it. I’ve been hungry for this for years. I can’t wait to see what we do :)
I’ve had a really bad winter to be honest, but I’m aiming to make my spring better. Even if it is 0.05% better, it’ll be better and thats what matters!
did you know piano’s my favourite instrument? (2025/03/09)
I love the piano. I use some here! :) I like it a lot.
Classix (2025/02/28)
Holy shit, new Steakfry? It’s not what I expected haha… whoever’s taking the reigns is doing an odd job… unless he produced this fully on his own before he passed but it doesn’t fully sound like anything he’s made before?
vanne is sad and bored (2025/02/23)
I can’t help it.
I…
Dissect the Frog [Draft] (2025/02/08)
I love this one a lot and I think the biggest gesture of love is sharing it, even in it’s infancy.
Words: cutoffyourtongue idontwannahearanotherwordfromya youdissectthefrog everythingyouveevertouchedhasjustspilledguts
idontreallywannatalktoyou butidon'treallyseethatgoingthrough allthelittlevoicesinyourhead sayishouldwindupdead
bridge <3
oooooooooo cutoffyourtongue iwannatasteyourblood dissectmyguts iwannafeelyourtouch oooooooooo
fedze! (2025/01/31)
"If I got famous, I'd change all my faces
I'd buy brand new things, then I'd go and replace them
I'll try super hard just to be superficial
And everyone would know who I am."
Valentines Day (2025/01/26)
Baby, I mean business, okay? I want to tell everyone but that’ll probably kneecap my progress. Only 1 other person knows right now and I’m so excited. I’ll say this: I’m in love with incelcore and will admit my feelings on the 14th!